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Look right through me... [01 Apr 2004|10:28pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I love this song...

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find I kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one new me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find I kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world

For some reason, I've just been hit by a wave of depression...

I don't even know why I've bothered to post anything in this journal... since I don't really like this username... I've made a new journal to rant in when I feel like it. It'll be nothing but nonsense... nothing of interest. But if for some reason, someone is curious... I may post a link to it. I have to finish fixing it up.

Too many things to do... can't take it...

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[13 Feb 2004|02:35am]
[ mood | drained ]

I know I haven't updated much. Really haven't felt like talking about anything. My life has been a pain and I've had to go through a really bad depression lately. Not that many care.

Let's see. My oekaki board was deleted from no reason. Couldn't get it back, so I had to just make a new one. I had to move my site from brinkster.com, but luckily someone offered to host me from free. Been hit by a bad art and writing block. Been hurt emotionally by a couple of people. Then the monitor for the computer that I use died one me. All in a days work ><

Yeah... things just don't go good for me u_u ::sighs::

Either way... my classes will be starting in a few days. At least I'll finally be able to get out of this house. I'm about to go insane. Though, with school means work that I don't want to do or take time away from my drawing to do. God, I suck.

Since I haven't posted any artwork in a while... here goes some of my recent work....
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Oh well... time to head back to my room and stare at the wall til I pass out x_x;;

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[01 Jan 2004|01:38pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Happy New Year everyone.

Yeah, I haven't been on in quite some time. That's basically because school started to be a bitch. Had to concentrate on that and get finals over and done with. Then my life was being a bitch as well and with my mom being addicted to EverQuest, I'm not allowed on the computer that's not a PoS too often. Then I got addicted to Gaia and spent most of my time there with friends. Lastly I got sick with strep throat... not fun.

So, I'm back for the time being... to rant about whatever.

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[01 Oct 2003|12:42am]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Blarrgh... I really haven't felt like ranting about anything. I'm just to tired.

I got back my first essay in English today. I was so afraid of getting it back because I'm just a horrible writer. But I did fairly good. I got a A- with barely any mistakes. I just need to explain how and why each element of 'style and structure' was used to get the author's purpose across. Oh well, next time.

On another note, I hate discussing stuff with my mom. She always turns everything I say around and make what I think wrong. Like today I was telling her about an essay we were discussing today in English. It was about how a black man was able to alter public space. I tried telling her that there are some instances in the examples that he uses to to where it is not just because of his race that people move away from him. It was the way he dress, his movement, the time of night. Many factors play a part in the way people perceive him. But there are instances where it is because of his race that people act a certain way around him. That was all I was trying to discuss with her. She goes, 'no, your wrong. It is only because of his race that people are acting that way around him.' So I go on to tell her about the first example the author uses in his essay to explain what I was talking about. A rather tall, huge guy walking down a street late at night in a large leather jacket with arms in pockets. He looks rather menacing. He walks quickly upon a woman who was in front of him and she quickly tries to walk away. I was saying that it wasn't just his race that made her move quickly away from him, but the fact that he looked that he would cause some harm to her. If you're walking alone on a street, espcially if you are female, some one comes up quickly behind you, you are gonna want to move away from them. But all I got from my mom is that I'm naïve. To her, I'm just some kid who thinks they know everything.

I hate that. Every time I try talking about anything with her, in the end, I'm just some kid that thinks they know everything. Especially when I say 'From my experince....' I can't even finish my sentence, she'll say 'What experinces have you had in your 18 year?' It's so annoying.


Anyway, my birthday is in a few days. Hopefully it wont be just like any other day this year. Maya might kidnap me for the weekend. She kidnapped me and my brother last Friday. It was rather fun. We went to Lomell's (or however you spell it) to eat. Really really good pizza. After that, we went to where John works to bug him. Maya wanted to kidnap him as well, but he couldn't leave.

After we left from there, we went to see Underworld (of course, me and poofee wanted to see POTC because we -still- haven't seen it, but Maya wanted to see Underworld). It was rather good, I enjoyed it. Though, I was the only one who thought it was a bit slow in the beginning. We then went back to pick John up and went to the beach. It was about 2 in the morning. Since it was foggy, it was rather creepy staring into nothingness.

It was fun. John told us a amusing story about how he got most of the other people that work at his job to quit.

Anyway, I gotta sleep now. I have a test in Early Civ tomorrow.

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[18 Sep 2003|11:34pm]
Holy hell.

I decided to set up a little art commission shop on Gaia Online and I already have 16 orders (some people even making two oO;) and it's only been one day~ ::dies::
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[15 Sep 2003|10:25pm]
[ mood | pensive ]

Ahhhhhhhhhh~ ::bashes head against the table::

I have a 750 word essay due tomorrow and I can't think! I'm screwed... I'm so freakin screwed. I could just ditch the class and make sure to do the rest of the essays but that would not be a good way to start off in a English class. Dammit! I also have three pages of Japanese homework to finish ::dies::

I am so screwed.... Gotta think.... come on brain... think

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[12 Sep 2003|12:26am]
[ mood | determined ]

I think I'm addicted to making layouts. Well, not for others but for my own personal use. I don't know why. Even the html part is fun oO Especially when there is a series I like, I feel the urge to make a layout. The only thing is I usually don't have anything to use the layout for. I might set up a site, but never really do anything with it. Man, I'm soo odd.

Anyway, I've been trying to do another drawing similar to this one [link], but since it was a total fluke, I'm having problems creating anything nearly as nice. I haven't really drawn anything since that picture anyway. I did sketch something in Japanese but to my surprise, I was having a hard time sketching. I guess I've gotten used to drawing on the computer with my tablet (since my scanner is broken). I still suck at drawing on the computer, but at least I'm doing much better than I was a few months ago.

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[11 Sep 2003|07:46pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

Ok, so the test in Japanese wasn't just about kanji. We also had to change verbs from the formal form to the dictionary form to the te/de form. Easy stuff. I was the first one finished even after triple checking my test. I'm going to kick Larry in the ass though for missing school today. Tests can not be made up. Plus I was alone for much of lunch until Jennifer came. He better have a good reason for not coming to school.

Anyway, I have to 750 word descriptive essay due on Tuesday. I think I'm screwed... not sure just yet. Hopefully over the weedend I'll be able to go over to Jennifer's house so we can work on it, since we are basicly writing about the same story.

Yay for Fridays since I have no class on Friday XD I love it. Though I'm getting my hair done tomorrow. No poofee hair for Jessi for a while ^.^

...I hope my brother fixes dinner soon. I'm so freakin' hungry.

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[11 Sep 2003|12:25am]
[ mood | sad ]

Man, it's so sad. I was just the 8000th visitor to my own site which happens to be the number I picked for the next kiriban. The last couple of times I've set a number for the next kiriban, no one has claimed to be that visitor number. Does no one want a gift piccy from Jessi? ;_; ::sniffles:: That makes Jessi very sad.

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[10 Sep 2003|11:49pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

Generator thingees taken from stoiccandy and green_froggie because I'm extremely bored.

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Yessss.... I'd do anything to get out of studying XD I have a kanji test tomorrow... >_>

I don't have much of anything to talk about. My Early Civ class is actually fun. I was worried at first because our teacher wants us to be involved in the class. English is ok, I suppose. I really don't think the teacher likes me too much though. She says that there are no wrong answers but everytime I answer something, she looks at me funny x_X;; I still haven't found another class to replace Naginata and I really don't want to anymore but my mom is trying to force me to get that last unit. So what if I'm down one unit? It's not like I'm on anyone's insurance or like I'm getting financial aid. I do not plan on transferring yet since I still have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life. I am leaning towards history being my major though. History really fascinates me.... well, not American history. I'm also having feelings of wanting to be an archeologist again. When I was in junior high, that's what I wanted to be but once I got into high school it changed to animator/video game designer.

Anyway, my mom was suppose to go to the hospital today to see what is wrong with her, but she didn't go. She said that she'll do it tomorrow. She's been ill for the past two years and yet she has not gone to see what is wrong. If something is seriously wrong, I do understand how she could put it off.

Ah, but now I'm just ranting.... I guess I should head to bed.

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[02 Sep 2003|06:17pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

Today was a good day, I suppose (I got my sweet tarts XD) Japanese was ok. I've had the teacher before so I know what to expect. Also, one of my good friends is taking the class with me so I wont be that bored. The english teacher is uh... not a very good one from what we saw today. Half of what she said made no sense. And no, it's not just me, but most of the class thought so as well. You shoulda seen how many people wanted to drop the class after she started talking about what is expected of us.

The only thing that pissed me off is I found out today that Naginata was moved from Monday and Wednesday to Tuesday and Thursday which conflicts with my Japanese, so I can no longer take Naginata. It sucks, I was looking forward to taking Naginata too u_u So now me and my friend have to find another class to take.

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[02 Sep 2003|08:53am]
[ mood | gloomy ]

NooOOOOoooo... I have to leave for school in about 20 minutes. I have Japanese and English today ::sniffles:: Don't make me go~ ::clings desperately to the computer while being dragged away::

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[26 Aug 2003|09:07pm]
[ mood | homicidal ]

I feel like I'm going to go homicidal if I don't get some new music soon... -.-; I've been trying to get music from RahXephon and Infinite Ryvius but both seem to be non-existent on Kazaa. Every now and then I may find some RahXephon music to download, but for some reason, I can never download it. -_-; And Infinite Ryvius... I can never find anything for it period, let alone download. ::sighs::

So anyway, does any one have any good music recommendations? Please, before I go insane... ;_;

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[23 Aug 2003|12:31pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Livejournal Mood Ring

is distressed.

If it's not one thing, it's another. Your life is a pitiful wreck, and it's all you ever write about. Why don't you at least make up a happy story for once. Your friends would appreciate that.

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color? enter your username and hit the button.

Hahaha, got that one right ><

I was in a pretty much self loathing mood last night and some friends wouldn't leave me alone til we talked about it ._. Oh well, I guess some people do care. They told me that because I'm so nice and whatnot that I shouldn't loathe myself ::shrugs:: I suppose. It's just for me, I get discouraged very easily.

In other news, I'm really starting to hate this username -_- It's crappy and it is getting on my nerves. Ok, that's all.
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[23 Aug 2003|12:59am]
[ mood | jealous ]

::sighs:: Well, I just got a big dose of discouragement.... don’t think I’ll be able to draw for a while now... u_u;

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[22 Aug 2003|02:03am]
[ mood | bored ]

Not much interesting going on. My life is quite boring.... u_u; Another week or so and school will start. Thank god, I will finally get out of this house and be around friends. I'll be taking Naginata, Japanese II, Early Civilization and Reading and Composition.

I had to go clothes shopping with my grandma a few days ago. I hate shopping.... especially with my grandma. She always lectures me about how I need to take classes the will help me get a job that will make lots of money. Does what I want to do, even though it may not make a lot of money, count? She's so annoying. She's quick to talk BS behind my back but when I go anywhere with her, she's like 'This is my granddaughter. She's a college student.' I hate going anywhere with her..... Anyway, I did get some nice clothes, but I look like a preppy now -_-;

It's been so boring lately that I started going monochromatic elf oekakis...... someone help me....
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I have a headache and nothing better to do..... -_-;;

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[10 Aug 2003|06:22pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Well, it would seem that my day in the spotlight has continued on Elfwood. They have not changed the Mod's Choice drawings for today. Though, I swear the next person that says Erebus looks like Yue from CCS or questions the reason why I call him a dragon and not a angel, will be shot....

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[09 Aug 2003|04:55pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Hmm... I find it amusing when I usually can't get anyone to go to my elfwood gallery, much less comment on any of my work. But then one of my oekakis gets mod's choice and people are like 'OMG, you're amazing'. It's kinda sad really. The only way to get noticed at Elfwood is to have your one of you drawings picked as a mod's choice.

Anyway, boring crap time. Some trustflow trust metric thing I got from wolfsamurai a while ago, just never felt like posting it.....
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I also changed my LJ layout out of boredom.... yaay? Hahaha, I think I'd better get back to working on my new character sketch.

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[09 Aug 2003|02:11am]
[ mood | shocked ]

Holy crap.... has hell frozen over or something? because one of my crappy oekakis just got Mod's Choice at Elfwood. I never get Mod's Choice on anything. And what's funny is it's the oekaki that was deleted from OekakiCentral. HA! Take that dumbasses XP

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[03 Aug 2003|02:10am]
[ mood | pissed off ]

I'm rather bored and pissed at the moment....

There is a rather stupid question I want to ask, it can't be helped. No one else is on for me to ask....
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